BR - Lucas by Kevin brooks




Paperback: 368 pages Publisher: Chicken House; Reissue edition (6 Mar 2006) Genre: Young Adult  Source: Library

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My Thoughts - Where has this book been all my life? I am still just in complete awe of this book, but more-so "Lucas" himself. I don't know if you have read Stargirl but if I were to describe Lucas, the first comparison that comes to mind is: Stargirl Simply because they share such similar traits in my opinion. Both are very mysterious and have an "Out of this world" presence. The way I felt when I finished Stargirl was the exact way I felt the moment, I finished Lucas. Speechless and filled with unanswered questions.


"I still don't understand what happened, I don't think I ever will. I suppose in a way, it was the start of everything; the beginning of the end"


LUCAS is the story of a 15 year old girl called Cait who is trying to find herself.  She is growing up, but feels as though everyone treats her as a child. She is at that age where you are still learning about yourself, experimenting, exploring and trying to figure out who you really are. We all go through it at some point. However, not all, if any will go through the experience that Cait will, an experience that will change her perspective on life, forever.


The story begins with Cate MacCann reminiscing on the summer she first met a boy named Lucas.  As soon as I read those first few pages, I could tell that the book was only going to get harder to read, Cait' story is not a happy one, but it is one which teaches you a thing or two.

It's the moment that Cait first sets eyes on Lucas, that she knows something as changed.  Maybe it's the fact that there is something unsettling, but special about him that she can't help but notice. Or maybe it's his blue eyes that she can't seem to turn away from.

Lucas is a survivor, probably best described as a drifter; but that is where any knowledge of him ends. Like I mentioned he is very mysterious, and that perhaps is a part of his allure, beside his strength and bravery that is. No one can seem to make sense of this young boy. Raised questions often are; who is he and where is he from? People always need a reason, most definitely when it comes to something they don't like. People at times, sadly, don't like what they can't seem to make sense of, it scares them. So they do the one thing that they can, spread rumours, and set out to do their worst.

Lucas is just a boy, a boy that even now is spinning in my head; I can't seem to make sense of him. There is this feeling though, that maybe like Stargirl he simply isn't a character that is to be attempted to figure out. Maybe as a reader I should just accept that he is not someone I can ever completely understand. For a reader though it's like telling me I might as well not know my characters. That's tough to do, it's tough to accept, but I accepted it out of respect for Stargirl, I think I can do that for Lucas. Maybe for the second time only, I will let him be. I have a feeling that he would want that.

Cait is a girl who I greatly admire; it takes a lot of courage for a 15 year old girl to go against a town and her own family for something she believes in. In this case being Lucas. This novel faces a lot of issues in today's society being; Discrimination, bullying, stereotype and most of all flawed people.

I ached for Lucas, for this boy who did nothing wrong, but was treated horribly all the same. What he goes though makes you look at us as humans as a whole with disgust and shame. The author makes you acknowledge that this is what we are capable of, and really... it doesn't take much for this happen over and over again, not much at all, and that scares me. This novel shows us first-hand how judgemental, fickle, and hateful people can really be without any real reason at all.

Lucas is a character who is very hard to explain. He seems out of this world, but mature beyond his years. He is soft spoken, calm and collected and minds his own business. It was clear from the very beginning for me that he never had any intention in harming anyone. It almost seems as though the things that were going to happen to him were inevitable, because people were so hell bent on getting rid of him. Even his good-doings are maliciously twisted and thrown against him. It is almost as though, he never really stood a chance. Then in the middle of it all is this equally strong and determined young girl, who hardly knows this boy but is fighting for what she feels is right; placing herself in the firing line, she is taking a great risk: a risk which is more than worth it for Lucas in her opinion.

I often got the feeling that people like Lucas are to special to stick around, they have a mission of some kind, attempt it or finish it and then are gone. Perhaps we are not worthy of them, and that scares people, it makes them afraid; maybe that is why they all turned on him, because inside they recognised that to. At times I questioned if he was even human. I was so confused and troubled about him that it frustrated me at times. I had come across something like this when I read Stargirl and felt a similar emotion when it came to his novel "Black Rabbit Summer" regarding the character Raymond who comes to mind frequently even now. I am no good at endings that leave to many unanswered questions, and both of his novels did exactly that. 

The saddest thing of all in my opinion is perhaps the moment Cait and Lucas are just getting to know each other, and start to become much more aware of what they are feeling, and suddenly everything is cut short. Leaving you angry, upset and unwilling to accept what just happened. You feel their pain, their helplessness and alongside them you ask "Did they even stand a chance"?

So little is revealed about him, even little is explained. Near the end you have to take it with a pinch of salt otherwise this story will haunt you for a long time, it's hard to just accept and never know, but, that is why years after first discovering this author as a child, his work still lingers and stays relevant to me and rated very highly among authors who I also grew up with and still adore, such as; Melvin Burgess, David Almond, Anne Fine, Bali Rai and Christopher Pike.

Overall, LUCAS makes you appreciate the smaller things in life, but also makes you aware of society as a whole, and gives you the lesson; just as quick as they can build you up, they can turn on you. Thought-provoking and gritty LUCAS is a novel that will not leave you for a very long time. Definitely a highlight for me; book-wise of 2009, and one that stood out and strongly held it's own.
"That's what happens. You just get on with it. There are no endings." 

BR - Thirteen Reasons Why By Jay Asher


"I hope you're ready, because I'm about to tell you the story of my life. More specifically, why my life ended. And if you're listening to these tapes, you're one of the reasons why." 
  • Paperback: 304 pages Publisher: Puffin (6 Aug 2009 
    Genre: Young Adult   Source: Library



My Thoughts - I read this book a few years back, but Hannah is someone who continues to haunt me.

Maybe because this was my first "grief" book. A book that didn't sugar - coat things, and didn't give me that happy ending. Not in the slightest. A part of me welcomed it because I wanted something thought - provoking, something that would shake me. In fact, it takes no time at all for the first punch to hit you in the gut. Because it's waiting, ready during the very first page. 

HANNAH IS DEAD. 

Gone, but she refuses to be forgotten. She's made sure of that. You see her death was no mistake. She planned in great detail in what she was going to leave behind. Thirteen tapes to be exact. One tape for every person that hurt her and contributed to her committing suicide. Thirteen reasons that explain why.


Clay is our protagonist. We are there alongside him the day he receives the tapes. And as he goes through each one, he is forced to bear witness to everything that people he knew put her though. He knows all about Hannah Baker, or wish he did anyway. She was the girl who kept to herself, was a loner and pushed everyone away including him. He was only able to watch from afar as she changed, appearance and personality - wise. But now, within these tapes, lies a possible answer. 

This book made me weep. So much anger, pain and bitterness. It's unbearable at times to read on. Every time Clay would switch over to the next tape, I would suck in a breath and try to prepare myself - the anxiousness drove me crazy at times. I felt like I was sitting right beside him, just waiting, waiting for when it would be his turn.

Some will say that she didn't go through enough to do what she did. I thought the very same at times. I went to a rough school and saw much worse. But what I also know is that everyone has a different threshold. You cannot judge someone for doing something just because you feel like she should have been able to endure more It is wrong. Hannah does go through a lot. But it's like this snowball affect. Every time she is abused, hurt and betrayed, it keeps adding up, until it comes to a point where she just does not have the strength to fight it anymore, and when that time comes, it's very apparent. A part of me saw this decline and dreaded it. It made me realise that perhaps she knew long before what she wanted to do, and maybe she didn't want to be saved. Oh but there were chances, many of them where she left herself open for people to see. Here's the thing though, no one wanted to see.

Since then I have thought to myself countless times. Does her doing this make her any better than the people who hurt her? And my answer is, probably not. But I've come to accept that I don't need to like Hannah. No one ever said that we should like her, even though we feel inclined to I think it's important for readers to know that we don't have to. I, for one, battled constantly when it came to what I thought of her. And I think that's OK. Because just like Hannah we are human, and neither of us are perfect.

One thing is clear though. Seeing things through Clay' eyes is something else. He is a great guy, and someone who really felt for Hannah. And although he may have failed to notice what she was going through there is something beautiful about the realisation he has towards the end, and how he acts on it. THIRTEEN REASONS WHY made my heart beat every time it was time to turn to the next tape, made me feel like I was walking alongside Clay every time he would head towards the next location, but most importantly it made me think. For a long time I sat down and just thought about Hannah and her story. About how some things may seem so small but have such a large affect on someone. I walked away from it a changed person. And suddenly very aware of those that tended to isolate themselves in school. It gave me the courage to walk over and get to know them better.

Not only is THIRTEEN REASON WHY heart- breaking but most importantly it's inspirational. There's not many of those out there. This book will always be special to me. Many years on I find myself tempted to re - read it and I find the experience achingly painful as the first time. Hannah' story is one that needs to be heard.


"A lot of you cared, just not enough." "In the end....everything matters." 

Introducing Myself



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